Friday, January 4, 2013

20th Anniversary

Today is a very special day. It is our 20th anniversary. In 2012, we celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary, but 20 years ago today we began dating. So many dramas happened so quick, and little did we know but we had a lifetime together ahead of us. We have both always been forces to be reckoned with in one way or another. Yet, we came together and spent decades trying and working hard to make this last. And today, I can say I have known you, deep down known you, for two decades of my 33 years on this earth.

Life without you seems as foreign as life without breathing. Every movement that I make comes with you and our daughter in mind, and that will never change. Our marriage, friendship, and home is what I am most proud of. Nothing else ever comes first, and I proudly speak of you and our family any chance I get.

After all that we've been through, it is amazing to look back over the years. In the beginning, we were kids on autopilot. The attempts by our parents to keep us apart became the glue that held us together. Feeling that gut-wrenching absence of wholeness made it easy to never forget what it felt like to be apart, so we hung on over thousands of miles, the heavy pressure of time, and other unspeakable things that could easily tear a relationship apart.

We became 'no matter what' a long time ago, and I could never see it any other way. Nothing else means much when we aren't doing well. I know it's co-dependance, but you are the only person that I have ever known that I know I can't live without. This is something that I am okay with. If I am going to depend on another person for some of my happiness, you are the person I want to do so with. And of course, you know I offer the same to you. I am okay with us being "co-dependent" and needing each other.

Who knows much longer we have together. Life is fleeting, as we age the chances of an end become great, and I know that I want to make every moment count. You inspire me, and I respect who you have become over the years. When I look back over my life, I know that I am so lucky to have you. i thank the universe every single day for bringing you to me when I was just a little girl. I question why I would be so lucky. People most likely have their opinions of our not so conventional relationship, and that's alright with me. None of them know what it is like in our shoes, and that's just too bad for them!

I love you, Ted Phelps, and I always will. I look forward to spending the rest of my life with you touring the world together, working together creatively, and making all our dreams come true.

Monday, December 31, 2012

2012 Favorites

2012 was an amazing year. Unlike 2011 where I spent the entire year working my butt off, I had the luxury of staying home with my family, working on my art and music, and studying interesting subjects in school. My year was filled with family, cats, a move to an amazing condo, travel, new friends, and much more. Here are some of the highlights.

1. Pet a baby bobcat and a baby skunk at the fair with my family.
2. Learned how to bake and cook more delicious food.
3. My best friend Gianna came to visit me in Portland after not seeing one another for a year!
4. Drove to Seattle with my two best friends Gianna and Anthony.
5. Had fun with different hair colors (purple, blue & purple umbre, auburn) after 7 years of virgin hair
6. Drove to Spokane to see my best friend perform on tour.
7. Thrifted and antiqued all year!
8. Had some great photo shoots with awesome photographers after taking a year off.
9. Moved into a beautiful condo.
10. Tried a new martial art.
11. Arizona trip with my husband.
12. Celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary.
13. Had an amazing July 4th together out on the town.
14. Spent time with Esali in Phoenix and met many great people.
15. Photo shoot at The Clarendon with John Foley, Lacheln Luxbot, and a whole gang of people.
16. Art classes all year.
17. Raised $300 to rescue a dying stray cat. R.I.P. Frankie! ^-^
18. Super awesome cat mom nursed both Minnie and Tiger back to health.
19. Took a few sewing classes at Modern Domestic.
20. Quit smoking cigarettes once and for all!
21.  My husband's Bar Sinister show in Los Angeles.
22. Figured out how to make my favorite recipe from my favorite Portland restaurant.
23. Drove to the Oregon coast for the first time and spent a day frolicking on the beach.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

10th Wedding Anniversary

My husband and I met 20 years ago in junior-high and this year on Sept 15th we celebrated our 10-year wedding anniversary. We decided to stay at The Monaco hotel, a Kimpton property. The Monaco is a unique historic hotel in downtown Portland close to many restaurants, bars, and nightlife. Based on customer service alone, we would stay there again in a heartbeat but when you throw in the affordable and delicious food, stunning decor, and comfortable rooms, it's a no-brainer. We had an amazing and fun night together exploring Portland nightlife. 

10 Memories

  1. It was 1992 and I was 13 the first time I met my husband, I remember it so vividly.
  2. The day I saw Ted in the mall after we had been ripped apart by family who shipped him away.
  3. Performing alongside Ted at Das Bunker on my birthday.
  4. Eloping to Las Vegas when we were in our twenties.
  5. The first time we toured the country together.
  6. Taking my husband to Martha's Vineyard after telling him about it for a decade.
  7. Raising a beautiful daughter together.
  8. How much I feel every single time I watch him perform, so proud and moved.
  9. The first time he tried to kiss me and I giggled and turned away, poor guy!
  10. All our many many road trips and tours around the country. He is my favorite travel partner.