Today is a very special day. It is our 20th anniversary. In 2012, we celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary, but 20 years ago today we began dating. So many dramas happened so quick, and little did we know but we had a lifetime together ahead of us. We have both always been forces to be reckoned with in one way or another. Yet, we came together and spent decades trying and working hard to make this last. And today, I can say I have known you, deep down known you, for two decades of my 33 years on this earth.
Life without you seems as foreign as life without breathing. Every movement that I make comes with you and our daughter in mind, and that will never change. Our marriage, friendship, and home is what I am most proud of. Nothing else ever comes first, and I proudly speak of you and our family any chance I get.
After all that we've been through, it is amazing to look back over the years. In the beginning, we were kids on autopilot. The attempts by our parents to keep us apart became the glue that held us together. Feeling that gut-wrenching absence of wholeness made it easy to never forget what it felt like to be apart, so we hung on over thousands of miles, the heavy pressure of time, and other unspeakable things that could easily tear a relationship apart.
We became 'no matter what' a long time ago, and I could never see it any other way. Nothing else means much when we aren't doing well. I know it's co-dependance, but you are the only person that I have ever known that I know I can't live without. This is something that I am okay with. If I am going to depend on another person for some of my happiness, you are the person I want to do so with. And of course, you know I offer the same to you. I am okay with us being "co-dependent" and needing each other.
Who knows much longer we have together. Life is fleeting, as we age the chances of an end become great, and I know that I want to make every moment count. You inspire me, and I respect who you have become over the years. When I look back over my life, I know that I am so lucky to have you. i thank the universe every single day for bringing you to me when I was just a little girl. I question why I would be so lucky. People most likely have their opinions of our not so conventional relationship, and that's alright with me. None of them know what it is like in our shoes, and that's just too bad for them!
I love you, Ted Phelps, and I always will. I look forward to spending the rest of my life with you touring the world together, working together creatively, and making all our dreams come true.